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Im on a rampage! ^_^ [09 Sep 2006|07:05pm]

crystalinewaltz
[ mood | SUCK MY BACK ]

Is this truly my first time posting to this? O_o;
When I first started writing this, it was horrible. Litteraly, a side of me that no one should have to see. I cried a bit and re-read it. I decided to take out everything except for my 4th point(the first three were juicy and full of curses ^_^). Still, Roaming Charges, should you happen upon this in some random twist of bad luck, I dont want tears:

I love you. I love you with all my heart. I've bled so hard for us. I'm so dirty, so pathetic, but I wanted so much to be perfect for you. Even now as I write this, Im hurting. I never wanted you to hate me, to not want me. For years, you made me crazy and made me feel so alive.
I wanted to be honest for you. So I told you all there was to me.
I wanted to be understanding of you. So I restrained my wrathful words until I could hear yours.
I wanted to be loyal to you. So I abandonded touching myself and weeped whenever I failed.
I wanted to be sexy for you. So I hid let you touch me in beautiful, pure ways.
I wanted to be strong for you. So I danced to a song of hatred and "n" words.

I never wanted you to feel quilt or to hurt. So I blammed myself for what was wrong.
I never wanted us to fight. So I simply gave in to love.
I never wanted to post this.
But as the song goes, you made me love you.
((Okay, girls! If you wanna see the orginal post, scroll down for my gory anger! ^^ Woot woot, all mighty uterus!))



























(Last chance. Back away now if you dont wanna cry....)

























(I warned ya.)












WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!! YOU STUPID SHIT-HEAD, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!!
((OOOkie-dokie, I suppose I dont have to elaborate since you could all take a wild guess as to who this is about. ^^))
I would like to make serveral random rageful statements now! ^_^
1.) NO MORE! I'm tired of you forgetting everything and Im sick and tired of you being sooo sorry for it and never doing anything to change!! Oh? Whats that? You say you HAVE been trying? Oh! You say that you've been giving it your all! And that everyone else acuses you of it too, that you're not trying hard enough? Imagine that! ^___^
While on that note:

2.) CUT. THE. SHIT. If I may quote Heidi from Thinner, "Enough bullshit is enough bullshit, my friend". The guilt trips? The pittiful stories? Yeah. Here's an update from ABCNews:
I'm a catholic; my whole LIFE is one big guilt trip!! >_O
Mommy dearest must've picked up lessons from a Jewish mom cause guilt is everywhere I turn since dating you hasn't been the most popular topic around the house. If you think your stories and excuses are going to move me anymore, you're sadly mistaken. I've dealt with your stories and listened and apologized for and believed them for YEARS.
Think I'm done? Oh no. Not by a long shot, dear ^^

3.) Are you TRYING to piss me off?! "I'm a horrible boyfriend", "You deserve better than me", "I'm not worth it".
I wonder... do you WANT me to break up with you? And are you just too scared to tell me to my face? You give me every reason too, and I have to wonder. Is this all just an elaborate design to get me to break it off with you first? What charity! What a saint! My knight in shining armor! =^_^= How lucky am I to have a boy would will tell me one minute:
"I love you with all my heart. You're everything to me. You're my world. I love you."
- and the next, do everything concievable that would drive any other woman to the brink of insanity. Not that Im not all ready insane 9_9;
If this is the case, dear, don't you dare tell me you love me. Don't you dare put up a farce of affection and longing. Better that you spew out words of hate and distaste to me than to lure me in and tear me apart.

3 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

Oh god... [02 Sep 2006|03:06am]

red_teardrops
[ mood | confused but oh so lovesick ]

I love him.
I hate him.
I love him.
I hate him.

AUGH!! I QUIT! BOYS ARE STUPID!

But god, I never wanted this night to end.
~Ashley

P.S. - Adding Lord Density to the list. I will explain later. It's too late right now.

A poisonous kiss...

Bitch Mafia Assemble! [07 Jul 2006|09:16am]

red_teardrops
[ mood | infuriated ]

Well, I've got another asshole on our hands, ladies. And this one doesn't hit on me, no, but I think he wants to actually keep me AWAY from my own fucking boyfriend.

Enter Arlen, who I THOUGHT was cool at first, but turned out to be a dickhole. First of all, he CONSTANTLY, REPEATEDLY, assumes that him and Louis are EXACTLY the same and have the EXACT same thoughts just because they've been friends for many many years.

Um, FYI? Me and Lili have been best friends for FIFTEEN YEARS and we don't think the same. Me and Jill have been best friends for five or six years and we don't think exactly the same! STOP TWINNING YOU PERSISTANT FUCK. Every time we talk he's like "Well me and Louis are the same and I would be worried that you'd cheat on him in college, so he must be worried too." Oh really? Then WHY oh WHY is it that Louis denies ALL KINDS of things like that? Hm? Tell me that!

Second of all, STOP mentioning for us to break up. NOT. GONNA. HAPPEN. And so HELP ME FUCKING GOD you convince my boyfriend to break up with me and I will GO TO YOUR HOUSE with a fucking CHAINSAW and fuck you up. No amount of fucking LIGHT SABERS could save you from me YOU FUCKING GEEKASS LOSER BASTARD. GO TO HELL! I HATE YOU!

Thirdly, he's one of those people that CONSTANTLY point out any typo you make, insignificant remark, or LACK OF TYPING. "Haha you repeated the same word twice." WHY YES, YES I DID YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE, MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I WAS UP SINCE 1PM THE DAY BEFORE!! IT'S 9: GODDAMNED 30 IN THE MORNING RIGHT NOW!!

FOURTHLY, I was up ALL FUCKING night, literally, with cramps that I get sometimes after...er, well sex. They don't happen much but OH MY GOD was this one hell. I couldn't fucking SLEEP. I was curled up into a ball in FUCKING AGONY because of LOUIS who was too distracted with ARLEN to give two shits about ME. THE GIRLFRIEND.

AND FINALLY to end this rant of doom, HE REPEATS HIMSELF OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN! YES THE FUCKING PICTURE OF THE BIG CAT ATTACKING THE SMALL CAT WAS FUNNY THE FIRST FUCKING NINE TIMES YOU SHOWED IT TO ME BUT NOT ANYMORE!! YOUR MEMORY IS WORSE THAN MY BOYFRIENDS!

And since my boyfriend and his "my friends are more important than you are" attitude has gotten me just upset as well, I'm adding TWO NEW NAMES to our fucking hitlist.

The Know-It-All Geekass Bastard (Arlen - Long I know but DAMN I'm PISSED right now!)
and
The Ever Forgetful Dipwad (since he loves to forget EVERYTHING important to me, involving the state of my health. I told them I was almost sent to the hospital last night and you know what they say? "LOL What would you have told them? You had sex too hard?" NO YOU FUCKING SHITHEADS GODDAMNIT :LSHDFLSHDFL:JDSHFJSDFJDS:SDHLHDSLLSH:DFL:JSDHL:SDHLFLSJDHDFS)

....Okay. I think I'm feeling a little better now. Excuse any typos.
~Ashley

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[07 Mar 2006|08:04pm]

neongreenleaf
Hit List Proposal: Miguel aka Creepy Miguel

Reason(s) Why: Hits on every girl in sight, asks girls he barely knows to prom, lisping problem, appearance similar to a turtle, stated that he was better than Louis (source: Ashley), has tried playing that kindergarten trick "if I'm mean to her maybe she'll pay attention to me" (Source Kelly) and is just very creepily weird.

Proposed Nickname: Creepy McGee

All in favor say I.
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Brand new!! [20 Feb 2006|04:11pm]

lady_alatariel
[ mood | groggy ]

Just letting you all know I changed the layout finally. I like it a lot; let me know what you think ^^;;

A poisonous kiss...

Fuck him! [24 Dec 2005|10:22am]

red_teardrops
[ mood | enraged ]

Ok...We all know I had a party right? And WHY didn't it turn out ok? Well I'll tell you.

MAINLY BECAUSE MR.DICKHEAD DECIDED TO TOTAL MY HOUSE!! First of all, the brought TONS of alcohol that got Jess and Steph WASTED like the dumbasses they are...even though he TOLD me he wasn't!

Then of course, he wanted to take the VCR in the living room to MY room AND THEN HE DIDN'T HOOK ANYTHING BACK UP SO NOW WHO'S THE ONE GETTING SCREETCHED AT BY THEIR PARENTS IN FRONT OF THEIR BEST FRIEND ?! ME!!! IT'S ME!!! FUCK HIM!

FUCK HIM SO MUCH HE COLLAPSES! AUGHHH!

SDL:FHSDL:FHL:SDHFSLDJFHL:SDHF

~ASHLEY!!!

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ATTENTION!!!!!!!! [24 Dec 2005|02:00am]

lady_alatariel
[ mood | >:| ]

UNYIELDING TANK! GET YOUR ASS OFF THE WATCH LIST RIGHT NOW! THIS IS A PRIVATE JOURNAL FOR WOMEN ONLY!! ARE YOU A WOMAN? NO! NOW GET YOUR ASS OFF! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO GO IN OUR BUSINESS! NOW GET OUT!

I can't believe you! I just can't believe you. I knew this was going to be a bad idea; I shouldn't have forced you to get a stupid LJ account.

But still! GET OFF THIS COMMUNITY!

4 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

clingy guys are the worst..(just adding to the previous topics) [21 Nov 2005|10:40pm]

shao_chan
a lil bit of a girl's playful teasing can get a guy all over u (literally)

fucking pisses me off....main topic, Dude A (kinda forgot his name at the moment)

I was at a party on friday, and I made out with Dude A, (I think hes like 25 or so...) and after that, the WHOLE night, he was ALL OVER ME WTF?!?!? at first it was ok, but then it got annoying, cuz I was having fun with my friends, staying away from him, and he comes by me and pulls me away, I jus gave him what he wanted to get him off my back (made out with him a lot) ugh...regret it...damn me...getting drunk...

well thats just one of the many I have had recently...but CLINGY GUYS SUCK!!! (unless ur dating them, when there are some exceptions) but other than that THEY ARE SUCH LOSERS!!!!111
3 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

GRRR [21 Nov 2005|06:52pm]

red_teardrops
[ mood | enraged ]

What the shit is this?

Remember the Wondering Fuckhead? Well, check out this little dity I got off his lj:

"Well one last thing to get off my chest. Ashley found out about me dating Julie. I feel bad about it, especially since I'm not totally over her. But I'm with Julie and I am enjoying being with her right now. I'm a clinical hopeless case with all this. I just really am. I'm happy with Julie, but there are those nights I sleep alone in my bed and just regret everything that happened between me and Ashley. Mostly because, I do miss her at times. But I guess I just need time (as shown on my tattoo) to help me move on. We all have those things in our lives that make us sad each time we look back at them, and She is one of those things. But, it isn't fair to Julie, and so I just concentrate on what I have with Julie. Right now, we're about to celebrate 6 months, and it is just like "whoa... 6 months" Time goes by so fast... how... why? Now that I'm in college, it's like the clock goes slower, but the calender speeds right by. Julie seems to be happy with me, and I enjoy being with her. So we'll see how it all works out. It just feels strange.
On top of that, I believe Ash may have blocked me, and I can't blame her. She wants to get away from me. I told her to get out of my life completely then. And why did I say just a horrible thing, because she told me she should never have given me her virginity. It was just a bad conversation, but essentially, lots of emotions and lots of yelling in chat. So I think she is gone... but... I can't do anything about that but just add her to the list of memories I can't get rid of... nor try to get rid of. I know I probably focus too much on her, but... I can't seem to let go of my past.
And to amend myself in 1 point. Ash, you were right. I am emo. Sigh... why is it that saying that isn't the same as when I found I was bi? When I found out I was a weight lifted off... saying this is like getting dirty... in a bad way. Oh well. So to close. I'm happy with Julie right now and gonna see how far that goes, and I do miss and am saddened by what happened with Ash, but I am going to move on because I don't know what else could be done about it. "I'm missing an arm" is what another friend of mine said, and it seems appropriate here. I'm missing an arm, but I have something new to have. Will it ever replace that arm, no, but will it get me by through my days , yes. Well... that's it for now. Now to go back to cramming for this damn Math test... grrrr... hate hate hate."

AUGHH! YES I BLOCKED HIM! BECAUSE TALKING TO HIM MAKES ME WANT TO RIP OUT HIS SPINE AND EAT IT!!!!

That is all.
~Ashley

5 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

I just HAVE to add this now after today... [09 Nov 2005|12:40am]

shao_chan
FUCKING THIEVES NEED TO BE DRAGGED BY THEIR DICKS OR WHATEVER PAINFUL PRIVATES CUZ THEY FUCKING SUCK!!

Stealing is something everyone has done at least once, and sometimes more, but you just DONT steal from a friend, or ppl u hang with, WTF IS THAT?! and now my friend Charlie (dude I like btw) is like the nicest, coolest guy at the anime club at QC, he's cool with everything, and lenient with the club rules. so WHO THE FUCKING HELL Steals from a guy like that?! Thats just completely messed up! and not to mention its in the locker where NEW FUCKING MEMBERS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO GO IN! You fucking people fucked everything up now, fucking thieves. not to mention the Nintendo DS was a gift from basically the whole club (excluding most new members) for his birthday, and that includes me! it was my present to him too! You fucking thieving assholes.

ok...now Im done with my ranting..you fucking thieves...umm...yea..ok...now done..(though they'll never see this, this post goes out to you assholes, and all you thieves out there that fucking take from friends or just anyone you DONT FUCKING TAKE FROM)

yea...that relieved a lot...phew...
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Hi all!! [08 Nov 2005|10:23pm]

shao_chan
w00t! new member!

I'll say KILL THE STALKERS!!!!!

*inserts name, Patrick*

PATRICK NEEDS TO DIE!! FUCKING FAT RETARDED OBESESSIVE STALKER WONT LEAVE ME ALONE!!

ok the end..
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Oh yea [08 Nov 2005|10:18pm]

red_teardrops
[ mood | calm ]

We can so totally scratch out the wondering fuckhead. I blocked his sorry booty. His sorry GAY booty that is. That little fuckhead just got on my LAST nerve with his "you don't even care!!11oneone" bullshit. That's enough.

~Ashley

2 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

the heretic strikes again... [07 Nov 2005|11:50am]

aznrevolution71
[ mood | angry ]

I just wanted to show EVERYONE how completely stupid the Heretic is. I made it quite clear with that message yesterday that I didn't want to hear anything from him again but Jill was right..he's an ass! I say we get an angry mob of estrogen against him..XD!! But anyways, here's his rather lengthy bullshit he wrote back to me..his shit is bolded:

The Letter of BullshitCollapse )

Now, on to my reaction on his points:

The REAL TruthCollapse )

I've officially blocked him in myspace. I'm not dealing with this shit anymore. He can go find the real truth by himself.

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[06 Nov 2005|11:10am]

aznrevolution71
[ mood | apathetic ]

An open letter to The Heretic I wrote yesterday. He was pissing me off with his stupid "holier than thou" attitude because of my views on gay marriage so this is the second message I wrote him back:

First of all, how bored are you that you aim to persecute me in the middle of the night? It is completely possible to be a Catholic and American at the same time. This country is founded by the seperation of church and state and it is in the 1st amendment that where it is stated quite clearly.

Why are you making me choose sides and why are you so concerned about my being Catholic and what Bible I read? You obviously think I'm going to hell anyway so why are you even bothering? Don't you dare think for a moment that you are going to be saved and I will not. Are you trying to prove me insufficient in my faith? I have had to defend my faith right here in college in the midst of persecution and I don't need to take it more from you. Don't you have a life? You obviously have fun showing people how "right" you are and how "wrong" I am. That's called hubris a.k.a pride, which is one of the seven deadly sins that can send you straight to hell. Showing people how Catholic you supposedly are is not going to win them over so stop with your fancy quotes and heretical internet bible. If you were to take me one and one without this computer, I think I would fair pretty well. I don't say the same for you. You obviously don't think for yourself because you don't question things you read, especially on the internet. I question what I read and reason it rather than just follow it verbatim. The internet is full of evils and you seem to believe a lot of crap that no one will. Start reasoning it for once instead of believing it. You're more gullible than I am and that's sad.

I do not want to see another e-mail because everything you sent me so far is a waste of my time and energy and just shows how ignorant you are. You never even took the time to talk with Mr. Hans because you obviously feel you're smarter than him, even though he has his college degree in theology and you don't. Its a pity because he's had a lot of friends that are traditional Catholic and was even considering it himself at your age. But since I don't want him to waste his valuable time on you, I'm not giving you his e-mail again.

Stop wasting time attacking me for being the way I am and start questioning your faith. There is a reason why there are much more Catholics than traditional Catholics in this world and you obviously need to find out why. Don't think your safe because you believe in God and that you are following the "right" church because you may very well be following one that completely breaks everything the Bible stands for. So think about this before you type me another completely heretical email: How "right" are you?

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GRRR [22 Oct 2005|09:52pm]

red_teardrops
[ mood | OMG PLS SHUT UP!!! kthxbai ]

I have one thing to say about The Sacrificer (AKA Emo4Lifers!)

MAKE IT STOP!!!

He's bitching about how ALL his friends hate him and how miserable he is. GRR...

He acts like al ittle girl, too.

2 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

Ok Girls [13 Oct 2005|11:45am]

red_teardrops
[ mood | cranky ]

I request a new person to the list.

Reasons: He likes to mess with my mind, by teasing me and complimenting me when he really means nothing.

An Example of his Stupidness:
Him - But you do have such beautiful eyes.
Me - Well, thanks.
Him - I'm just joking. HAHAHAHA.
Me - ...Oh.
Him - But you do have some nice features. I'll give you that.
Me - *Obviously knows he's referring to my boobs* Thanks -_-

Proposed Nickname: The Unfunny Idiot.

Thank you, have a nice day. ^_^

3 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

yay first post! [03 Oct 2005|07:50pm]

red_teardrops
[ mood | cheerful ]

Lets talk about the Martyr.

He's gonna be at the Halloween party, being dumb and miserable. IF YOU ARE INVITED AND HE'S ACTING LIKE A DUMBASS - DON'T BOTHER!! Don't try to make him feel better. IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK.

That is all ^_^

~Ashley

EDIT: On myspace, I posted a bulletin called "Nice Guys"...The link for this page is here:
http://www.heartless-bitches.com/rants/niceguys/niceguys.shtml

Funny as fuck right?

Ok well the Martyr reads it and for some reason gets all uptight about it even though I never said "FOR THE MARTYR" (obviously using his real name)...and sends me a HUGE message...I dont' even think I read it...let me check that out...

Ok apparently, he's "clearing stuff up." Now I'm a reasonable woman. When an ex replies to me even though I did nothing to direct him to it, I inform him that he should probably shut up because NO ONE ELSE seemed upset about it. Just cause he's my ex...doesn't make him special. Over and out!

~Ashley

5 Has stepped into our traps / A poisonous kiss...

Bitch! [02 Oct 2005|10:36pm]

lady_alatariel
[ mood | giggly ]

Welcome to the Bitch Mafia, where women and gays are gathered here to discuss about problems with men. If you read the rules and consider joining, then go head and do so!

So here's the thing, when you have a problem about a man you decide if we put him on the hitlist. However, we don't just simply put his normal name down; no, we give him a nickname. A nickname that can relate to that person the most. It's quite simple, just look at our hitlist. ^_^

This community is just a place to let out all your steam about men and we're here to help each other out with their problems.

Well, join now damnit! >.< ^^;;

A poisonous kiss...

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